The big day is going to be here in one Week

The big day is so close I can taste it, and the nerves are setting in. OH the big day for our first appt is May 7^th next week, and God is so great. That we neither one have to miss work for it. This day is on Saturday. And hopefully only iui is May 7^th 2011.  I know God has a plan, and I try not to think negative. But hey I’m human. I am so nervous to feel so positive to get a big letdown. This is when I need God the most. When I’m scared and nervous only God can bring back all my courage.  When I’m thinking likes this I think of the bible verse

But my God shall supply all your need accoring to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus
Philippians chapter 4 verse 19

The big word in this verse is all . God will supply all my needs. I know a baby is not a need to some people,  but for me I have dreamed of becoming a mother my whole life. When the doctor tells you your body is not working, and going to have a hard time getting pregnant your whole word shatters. I was in depression. But now God has brought me back and I’m going to let him do all his work. He will supply for my needs and all your needs. If we just put our faith in him…. So please pray for May 7^th to be a great day and for us to have a baby on the way.

Wonderful World of Side Effects

Everything in life usually has a side effect. When taking medicine or even down to making a decision. There are a million of side effects that can go on during my walk to motherhood. The first big side effect is the hurting on our pocket.  Daniel has been working so hard for us to be able to go down this road. I could never do anything to show him how much I appreciate the hard work he has put in. We have all ready spend about three thousand in unsuccessful tries, and we still have a lot more appts to go. God tells us he will never give us anything we cannot handle. I know God is just waiting for the correct time to send us our baby. But we need all the prayers we can get, because we have only enough saved for two round of iui and you have to pay up front. NO PAYMENT PLAN!! I feel like I’m a burden to my husband because he has to go through all of this with me, and work twice has hard to help me.

                The second side effects are the medicine. Seriously one minute I love the world. The next minute I’m ready to kill someone. Then here comes the rain. I cry over everything. The least little things make me cry. I could not find a shoe for Daniel and I cried for thirty minutes about the lost shoe. The medicine makes you feel like you’re going crazy, and it makes me get on my own nerves so I can imagine what Daniel is feeling.

Side effects to be prepared for it cost a lot. The second thing is go ahead and tell everyone you’re sorry for your actions up front. Especially your husband, trust me you will be telling him your sorry a whole a lot. Always carry tissues that’s a must.  Lastly talk about how you feel to yourself or write things down. Do not keep stuff bottled up, because the bottle will pop. I feel like I’m always begging God for a baby, but God is always listening to me go on and on and on.

Why fertility?

Everyone wants to know why we had to choose this route. I have PCOS. That is short for polyitics ovarian syndrome. A round a million women live with this each day. About three fourths never have a problem out of this. I guess I’m in the twenty five percent that does have the problem. The pcos cause my body not to ovulate. I have all ready done seven rounds of clomid (medicine to make you ovulate).  The ob doctor suggested we see a fertility specialist. We made our appt with Dr. Doody.  He is one of the best in the world. He is really a great doctor. He did give me hope. With God and Dr. Doody on my side I just know we will have a baby soon. The first thing we had to do is get about sixty different blood test ran. Praise the lord that’s one thing Daniel insurance covers!!  Then he sent me for a surgery.  People ask me sometimes, “How do you know God is working”? Well the truth is the surgery was supposed to be a six week wait time frame to get to see the doctor. O by the way when doing fertility treatment you do a whole lot of waiting. God is teaching me patient right now. Anyways the nurse came in and she said “How about we do it in two weeks, someone cancelled”. Right then I knew Daniel, and I had done what God wanted us to do.  Now we are four weeks after surgery and ready to start our first IUI treatment. We are so excited for the day to come to get to do our first round. It did take a lot of praying. I think about it every single minute of my life, and to be honest I almost drive myself crazy, but I have turned it over to God and I know God will provide us with a healthy baby. Keep reading to find out when our big day comes to start.

All about Daniel and I

My name is Velissa Smith. I’m married to my soul mate.  God has blessed me so much over my life, and is currently sending blessings my way. He has always been there and provided for me. I’m writing my blog to talk about my road to motherhood. I hope this blog can help anyone or if it just helps me grow closer to God that will be great with me. I really hope it can help someone too.

                It has been a long journey to get where I am today. I got married to Daniel on September 5^th 2009. That was the greatest day of my life. Our journey to have a baby has been very long and stressful for the both of us. However, God said he never promised that the cross would not get heavy and the hill would not be hard to climb. He never offered a victory without fighting, but help would always come in time. With saying this Daniel and I have been up hours and hours of the night talking and praying, and decided to do fertility treatment.  Daniel and I have been trying to have a baby on our own for over and year and with help of little medicine. The doctor said it was time for help. So God has provided us with a great doctor, and a great family for support. Please pray for us and down our long journey we have ahead of us.