Day eight in the NICU has been the best day for our family. Payson had a huge hole in her heart and now it is gone. God took care of the hole in Payson’s heart. No one else could have done this. The dr’s are so amazed about how great Payson is doing. I’m so honored that God is taken care of my baby and showing us how much of a miracle man he is. I am reminded of a verse Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ which strengthened me”. Well for Daniel and I this verse says it all. We have a difficult time everyday moving on and adjusting to life without Rayleigh and taken care of Payson on. However God is with us every single second and he is making us stronger every single day. Please continue to pray for Payson, Daniel and I will be ok we want God to focus on our baby and not us. Thank you again and we love each and every one of you.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Baby Rayleigh and Baby Payson
I will never forget October 6th 2011 for the rest of my life. Rayleigh Grace Smith was born and passed away on this day. This was the most horrifying day of my life. I have never been so scared. We will never get over this. We are not sure why this happened to us, and I’m sure we will never understand why. But Daniel and I are getting through and dealing every day. This really hurt our family to lose such a beautiful little princess. Rayleigh sacrificed herself for her little sister. No one will ever love Payson like Rayleigh loved her. No one will ever know Rayleigh like Payson did. I have a hard time talking about Rayleigh and I really have not dealt with losing her just yet. I miss that baby more and more every day. I know she is in a better place and I know I should never wish her back from Heaven. God must of needed a sweet little angel so he had to take her back to heaven. Than on October 12th Payson was ready to join the world. Payson is fighting so hard for her life right now. We have to fight with her and for her. We need a lot of prayers to get through the next few weeks. Please pray hard for baby Payson. God is in control and we want him to show up and show the doctors he is a miracle man.
Dear Rayleigh,
I carried you for 23 weeks and three days. I felt you kick and move around. I did not get to meet you face to face. I am so glad God took you to heaven so you did not have to feel any pain. Your dad and I love you more than you will ever know. Payson loves you even more. Thank you for taken care of your sister. I will see you soon one day. I hope papal Ed is taken good care of you and not teaching you to many silly things. I love you Rayleigh and I hope you get the kisses I send up to heaven for you.
Love Mommy
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